Notes from the universe: what’s next

Notes from the universe: what’s next

Note: I wrote this in early February, but haven’t had the guts to post it until now. 

I suppose it started years ago. In the wee hours of the morning on my first day of my senior year of university—my first last day, as I cheekily updated my Facebook status—I went to a sunrise yoga class. The lithe young teacher asked us to come up with three words for our practice: our mantra, our intention, what we wanted to be that day. I chose peaceful, grounded, stress-free. Since then, those three words continue to circle in my mind, particularly as a young woman who tended to take everything far too seriously, whose fifth-grade teacher told her she would get an ulcer before she turned 20.

And then a few months ago, in the midst of event planning madness, my boss poured some motivation-scented oil into some strange little candle vat, said we were both going to take one minute and come up with the word that represented what we wanted to achieve that day. We blurted out “confirmation” in the same breath, breathed that intention into the universe, and proceeded to confirm every loose end that had been eluding us for weeks.

In the first month of 2012 in Bali, I morphed into someone who seemed like a parody of myself: Melbourne was city Christine with a perfect fringe and black skinny jeans and her trusty leather jacket, and here’s Bali hippie Christine. I finally gave up on trying to straighten my hair in the heavy humidity, and succumbed to its natural waviness. I dabbed sandalwood oil onto my wrists instead of Chanel perfume, and wrapped a sarong around my waist and slid Havianas onto my feet as I slipped into another vegetarian café for dinner. I went to yoga once, twice a day and actively chose intentions for my practice. Focus, and I finally nailed crow pose. Relaxation, and I accepted my hips opening and shoulders releasing. Go deeper, and I quieted the cacophony of voices in my head.

The busy voices in my head were mostly concerning what’s next. Do I go here, do this, give up, go home, spend this, save that. I let it take over my head space, the worries and possibilities and opportunities, writing lists and Googling options and being overcome with obligations. I bought a Magic-8 Ball app, wanting to give my decision making over to some unknown force, instead of trusting in my own intuition.

And then, my last day in Bali, I thrust my backside up and my head down into downward dog to start off another Vinyasa flow. I had spent the hour before class sipping a smoothie and listing the pros and cons of different choices, a favorite exercise of my anxiously logical former self. And then I let myself open up and simply see what the universe was telling me.

The echoing of this eerie song from this video in my head, a clip that brought me to tears the first time I watched it yet compelled me to instantly watch again, and again. The reflection of these photos in my mind: the crash of sunlight and glass skyscrapers and pure energy. The memory of words in a recent email from a close friend, where he said the city amazed him, that just breathing in the air put lightning in his teeth.

That was it. A trifecta of nudges, the universe calmly but surely telling me what was next: my intuition knowing that I need a little lightning in my life.

I’m moving to New York City.

  • camorose

    Awww thanks lovely! I’m getting more and more ready/excited to settle down and start a family of my own one day, so I really want to take advantage of this time where I’m young and free and can change my mind without affecting anyone other than me! Looking forward to reading your piece 🙂

  • What exciting plans! You’re so lucky that you can choose to live in NYC…I love it there but sadly my Australian passport is only good for a quick visit 🙂

  • Wow Christine! You know I find the answer is always there, we just have to finally listen to ourselves. I’m so looking forward to your NYC adventures.

  • camorose

    All of my Australian friends who are totally obsessed with NYC–and who would love the chance to work there–definitely played into this decision as well! Aussies seem to adore NYC 🙂

  • camorose

    Thanks lady! I think there will be plenty of foodie ones to be had–and I’d love to go to Canada, so perhaps a visit to Toronto isn’t too far out of the question 🙂

  • That’s so amazing that you’re doing something you dreamed of as a child! What work do you plan on doing? Bartending again? or something new?

  • Yay! That’s so exciting!!

    I was thinking about living in NY myself, since I feel like I’m always in and out of there anyway; maybe I’ll see you there 🙂

  • camorose

    I’ll probably work in PR or social media–looking forward to having a salary and health insurance again 🙂

  • camorose

    Would be lovely to cross paths!

  • ElizabethGuz

    I have become a fan over the summer and I’m quite excited for you. It takes tremendous amounts of guts on deciding what your next step in life is going to be. I wish you nothing by luck and happiness the next chapter of your life.

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  • camorose

    Thank you so much–that’s so nice to hear. I’m certainly looking forward to the adventure itself and being able to share it with everyone 🙂

  • Haha we do indeed! It does ‘big city’ in style and is maybe one of the only real big cities in the world…Sydney tries hard but will never quite be able to catch up (being a born and bred Sydney-sider I shouldn’t say that, but it’s true!) 🙂 

  • BrielKrystek

    How exciting! I love to visit New York, there’s just something about it. I’m excited to see what it holds in store for you. 🙂

  • I cracked a smile at reading the last sentence of this. 🙂

  • camorose

    Thanks lady! Definitely looking forward to seeing how it all pans out 🙂

  • camorose

    Awww yay 🙂 Come visit!

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  • Jess

    Oh Christine, I got goosebumps reading this! This is quite possibly one of my favourite posts on your blog! Congratulations and good luck!

  • camorose

    Thanks, Jess x

  • Rosa

    Such beautiful writing Christine and I’m sure this is the right decision for you! At any age it can be hard to slow down and just listen to our intuition.

  • camorose

    Thanks, Rosa 🙂 We’ll see how NYC works out!

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  • Liz

    Thank you for sharing! I just stumbled upon this…what a wonderful reflection on how to move forward.

  • camorose

    So glad you did–still one of my favorite posts 🙂

  • LeJanika Green

    This is so awesome. “That was it. A triecta of nudges, the universe calmly but surely telling me what was next: my intuition knowing that I need a little lightning in my life.” and that is how I am feeling now. (I know this was 2 years ago for you). Now is my time. If it’s not NY, somewhere.

  • camorose

    Yay! I still remember when I decided to move to New York two years ago, and I’m still so glad that I did 🙂

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